Different shoes

Like a whisper.. faint, mysteriously easing it's way into your conscious.. the very breath of your spirit. Hey, hey you, you know that you are a miracle? A miracle worker? A divine force of compassion and love. Did you know? Do you know?
And then you breathe it in.

The old saying "karma is such a bitch" is used a lot in our society. But what if the intention was changed... tweeked a bit. What if it were perhaps like wearing a different pair of shoes?
Sure it may feel like a bitch but if we take the bitterness out and allow ourselves to feel and extend grace it may be more redemptive. At least it will allow for redemption. Redemption within ourselves, for ourselves, our souls, our spirit.

Instead of.. this is what I deserve because of "fill in the blank".
Why not; wow, now I know how that feels. Feel it and let it go. Thank the Universe for allowing those shoes to be worn. And be better for having walked in them. Give whatever it may be a divine kiss and release it.
Even if...even if the outcome is not what we expect or hope for.

You are a miracle worker.

Creative Space

A deviation that leads me into a space, a creative one of course. I think of the root of that word; create.

I have no idea what will come of this. It's scary to think that a plan I had envisioned for myself has taken a sharp turn into a different space. A lucrative plan...a plan that would lead to independence and credibility.
I am practicing the skill of not entertaining the frequent occurring feelings of inadequacy. Nursing school didn't work out.
Where does this lead me?
Well, for quite some time now I've had this strong desire to pursue yoga training. I just couldn't do it while in school. I figured I needed to get my "shit together" get a good job..and then I could pursue my dreams of headstands and asanas in the sky.
Interesting when things don't go according to plan. I may not make as much money doing yoga compared to nursing. I may make more. who knows. but I am excited to live in the passion and space that comes a bit more natural to me. That doesn't exclude the hard work this physical practice is going to require. But at least the questions on our test won't be choose the BEST answer multiple choice! That i don't miss for a second.

Practice for today:
Be confident in your space.

I love this kid

How To Be Alone

My Horoscope for this week.

It would be a good week for you to assemble a big pile of old tv's you bought for $5 a piece at a thrift store and run over them with a bulldozer. It would also be a favorable time to start a blazing fire in a fireplace and throw in the photos of all the supposedly attractive people you used to be infatuated with, even though you now realize that they were unworthy of your smart love. In other words, it is a perfect moment to destroy symbols of the things that have drained your energy and held you back. There's an excellent chance this will provide a jolt of deliverance that will prime further liberations in the coming weeks.

Have you ever just taken a moment to stop and think? Think about the very present, the very space you are in at any given time? What you are doing not so much where you are going but what it is that drives the very step of your movement? So i drive myself crazy because i am almost 30 and I don't have a degree yet. I'm working towards it, wherever it leads.. Today i vowed to myself not to worry because what I am doing now is what I love. What I am doing now matters. I don't give much worth to the present because i am so preoccupied with a destination, an expectation that will one day fulfill, that will one day give me that label i have longed for. That label will give me worth.. it will give me something to wake up for in the morning. But why not now? Why not embrace the work I do that makes me hardly 2 dimes to rub together.. but it brings me joy. I was brushing my teeth and it came to me suddenly like a gush of super tingly mouthwash. haha.. I love the feeling of training women to work hard, to love their bodies, to achieve goals they never thought they could. I love helping them stretch out the pain the inhibits their bodies to just breathe. Last Saturday I taught a Yilates class. Yoga and Pilates mixed with a Buddha boot camp funky twist. I think i'm gonna brand that name. :) I AM doing something i love. But for some reason I sell it short. I believe transitions are opportunities. The older I get, the more I realize I am walking into the very things that I love. The Universe is a magnetic force that teaches me to trust. And to trust myself. To choose my path. I ate a fortune cookie last week that said "choose your path". Ok, ok.. i need to listen. Why am i writing this? Well, school has always been a struggle for me. I tend to be really interested in things that make no money. The pressure from a struggling economy leaves me extremely worried about not having a solid job in a seemingly "promising field". In this case, health care. Nursing. I'm a bit worried about this semester. I am always worried EVERY semester because I am usually right at the borderline of pass/fail. So... I will update in a few days. Then I will know the outcome. Forward movement isn't just passing, it's also choosing.

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

another good ol song from Adele. i can't help but think of drag queens walking down runways with their fake locks flowing in the wind. ha!!